Never Give Up!

[Latina Starling]

You cry and then wipe your eyes and let go and let God deal with it! Those were the words that I remember my Dad telling me when I first found out about my cancer diagnosis. He aslo said that he would give his own life to let me live. That's when I knew that I couldn't give up or give in to this devastating disease called breast cancer. I was alone the day I found out and soon after everything was schedule to take place, like chemo, labs, doctor visits, I was no longer alone on this journey ahead. Being active duty military you always feel that since of being alone while moving from place to place. But that feeling quickly vanished. My husband flew in from New Jersey from a business trip a week later, he has been beside me since then and our relationship has gotten much stronger through it all. We have an unspeakable love now for each other! My Mom, sisters, and nephew came to visit and when you think of cancer you automatically assume the worse, so they obiviously had an image in their head that I would be looking very sickly, but the look on their faces was of a sign of relief. They saw me as their big Sister and Auntie, and most of all Daughter. They immediately said, "You don't look like you just had your first round of Chemo or even Breast Cancer", I said well thank you for the complement LOL! P.S. What are you suppose to look like?" My goal from then on was to look as fabulous as possible no matter how I felt inside, to let the whole world know that I hadn't and won't ever Give up!